Caught in the Middle
Master,
You come home tomorrow sometime.
I probably won't get to see you anytime soon simply because with you being gone I am sure the work has piled up. I have missed you so much I can hardly believe there is only one more sleep until you are back home.
I attended a Beat and Greet at Dungeon Servitus last night. I learned a little about floggers, canes, and paddles. I attended with a new friend that was willing to be taught their actual use since I am on a "no play" restriction in your absence. I was delighted to see that nearly everyone was respectful of this. Only another new person added me on FL and tried to get me to send them photos of myself. I wasn't about to send anything to anyone since it is not mine to show. It is yours my Master.
Today was filled with some mixed emotions. Meeting many you have met already was very insightful. The more events I attend the more comfortable I become with myself. This alone is intriguing. It isn't that I wasn't comfortable with others in the community. It was comfort in my own skin.
Someone shared with me a little they knew about you. Something I did not know. It soured the remainder of my evening. Instead of being out of my head and into learning about the various tools of pleasure and pain...I shut down. I was stuck in my own head. Writing to you on FL didn't help. Knowing I will see you soon didn't either.
Master, I don't know what it is that bothers me exactly. I am sure it simply deals with the fact that as you know, I pick partners that are not very nice or lack the ability to care for me. I choose those that cannot meet my needs.
Master, you chose me.
So, I am realizing that there is still so much we have yet to learn about each other.
I attended another munch on Thursday night. It caterered to those in the northern county. I met even more people and when several left I was in a circle of friends. A Domme/Switch/Bottom/Sub. All there. Since I was the new kid on the block, I was asked if I had any questions. I giggled and told them that they would be there for a week and frozen over if I were to present them with all my questions.
I asked several questions. Received several answers. Referred to you for several of my other questions. Many of my questions are meant only for my Master to answer. They are regarding intricacies of our relationship together and not necessarily a standard in every D/s relationship.
So, again, pet must learn to be patient.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
*smiles*
Master you just sent a text to me letting me know you are in the US now. My heart is singing and filled with joy...I could cry because you are home. I cannot wait to feel you.
xoxo,
pet
You come home tomorrow sometime.
I probably won't get to see you anytime soon simply because with you being gone I am sure the work has piled up. I have missed you so much I can hardly believe there is only one more sleep until you are back home.
I attended a Beat and Greet at Dungeon Servitus last night. I learned a little about floggers, canes, and paddles. I attended with a new friend that was willing to be taught their actual use since I am on a "no play" restriction in your absence. I was delighted to see that nearly everyone was respectful of this. Only another new person added me on FL and tried to get me to send them photos of myself. I wasn't about to send anything to anyone since it is not mine to show. It is yours my Master.
Today was filled with some mixed emotions. Meeting many you have met already was very insightful. The more events I attend the more comfortable I become with myself. This alone is intriguing. It isn't that I wasn't comfortable with others in the community. It was comfort in my own skin.
Someone shared with me a little they knew about you. Something I did not know. It soured the remainder of my evening. Instead of being out of my head and into learning about the various tools of pleasure and pain...I shut down. I was stuck in my own head. Writing to you on FL didn't help. Knowing I will see you soon didn't either.
Master, I don't know what it is that bothers me exactly. I am sure it simply deals with the fact that as you know, I pick partners that are not very nice or lack the ability to care for me. I choose those that cannot meet my needs.
Master, you chose me.
So, I am realizing that there is still so much we have yet to learn about each other.
I attended another munch on Thursday night. It caterered to those in the northern county. I met even more people and when several left I was in a circle of friends. A Domme/Switch/Bottom/Sub. All there. Since I was the new kid on the block, I was asked if I had any questions. I giggled and told them that they would be there for a week and frozen over if I were to present them with all my questions.
I asked several questions. Received several answers. Referred to you for several of my other questions. Many of my questions are meant only for my Master to answer. They are regarding intricacies of our relationship together and not necessarily a standard in every D/s relationship.
So, again, pet must learn to be patient.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
*smiles*
Master you just sent a text to me letting me know you are in the US now. My heart is singing and filled with joy...I could cry because you are home. I cannot wait to feel you.
xoxo,
pet
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