Missing You Dearly
Master-
pet misses you still. pet honestly thought as the days went by she would miss you less. That just isn't so. pet realizes that each day that passes, she no longer is falling into a depression, but instead she has been saying "yes" to invitations to join people for dinner....for drinks...you name it. pet is being good and she is not playing with anyone. pet has been quite obedient in that regard. pet feels stronger in her heart but missing you seems to conflict with that. Master, if pet misses you this much, isn't that being weak?
pet is sorry to have sent you texts. pet had a few drinks, then walked to another bar/club with her lesbian hairstylist and drank more! pet met so many interesting people...most of the bisexual she realizes...even her hairstylist...Master, pet declined a few women and had a one woman in particular very angry (she was drunk) that pet was not there to "play". pet was there because her stylist came into town from Colorado early so she could hang out with her friends...pet just so happens to be one of them. Master, pet realized too that her stylist actually wants to be with her sexually. pet's stylist was also drunk and mouth screwing a bisexual guy named John. pet was most surprised to see her doing this because she has never seen her with anyone other than women. pet almost choked on her drink.
pet realized after dancing a few songs with John and Lora that she had to leave because John was starting to get angry with pet...Lora was angry with pet...because pet wasn't "playing" with them. pet left for home then.
pet had so much on her mind...was "playing" with these people something she really wanted to do? Can people really just randomly have sex with each other without feeling something for the other person other than just sexual desire? pet isn't sure that the casual sex thing is for her. The individuals that were out last night were a great time indeed, but because pet danced with them they had a sense of entitlement...they were entitled to "play" with pet just because we danced a few songs together. Rubbing butts and gyrating hips does not mean pet wants to sleep with you.
pet didn't have to buy a single drink for herself, they were paid for by another guy that was hanging out with us. pet thinks his name was Vincent...or Vinnie...can't remember...but he was buying her drink after drink...she thinks that some of the people she was hanging out with were taking X because two had put these pill-like things in their mouths and let them dissolve on their tongues. pet kept asking them what it was they were taking...it's the health care provider in me to ask...because if they passed out and had to go to the ER pet would need to tell the hospital what they had so they don't kill them with other drugs... alright...that's a little dramatic but you understand what pet is writing right Master? No one would tell pet what it was...they would hold the pill out on their tongue and tell pet to "come find out". pet declined. Several times in fact.
Master, why do some men think that if they buy you a drink they deserve more than just a "thank you"? Master knows pet can buy her own drinks...can buy them drinks...but pet doesn't expect them to go home with her.
Years ago, when pet was in the dating scene...she would always feel like she owed someone something if they bought dinner or a drink...took her a very long time to believe she didn't owe anyone anything and if that sex was the price of a drink, they can keep their effing drink. pet isn't easy like that. More than just dinner and drink... (haha)
Anyway, pet wondered if Master would ever go to a place like that with pet and dance with her? pet would have a difficult time not getting turned on by rubbing on you. :)
pet is attending a munch tonight...it is close by and seems like it will be fun. There was another event that pet RSVP'd for earlier but could not attend...as she was at work.
Sorry for the drunk texts...pet misses you terribly. pet cannot explain how she is feeling about your absence from her. pet cannot even explain how or why exactly she even feels this way about you. pet feels a little lost. Keeping busy is helping.
pet is doing research about sub-drop, sub-space, and aftercare. There seems to be a little conflict with what some say about the three. Some believe that it is Master's responsibility as my dom to provide adequate aftercare to avoid sub-drop. Others believe it is pets responsibility to care for herself and provide herself adequate care after a scene/session. pet believes that Master will know what is best for pet...as he already does now.
pet still isn't sure how exactly Master is doing this FOR ME.
A sub is supposed to be ALL ABOUT YOU(Master/Dom). Not about the sub.
So to me, that means this shouldn't be about me...but about you.
Perhaps pet just needs to stop reading so much...over analyzing is going to be the end of me.
Master can explain what he expects of pet so she can meet Master's expectations. pet realizes it is still early on in this D/s relationship.
xoxoxox
pet
pet misses you still. pet honestly thought as the days went by she would miss you less. That just isn't so. pet realizes that each day that passes, she no longer is falling into a depression, but instead she has been saying "yes" to invitations to join people for dinner....for drinks...you name it. pet is being good and she is not playing with anyone. pet has been quite obedient in that regard. pet feels stronger in her heart but missing you seems to conflict with that. Master, if pet misses you this much, isn't that being weak?
pet is sorry to have sent you texts. pet had a few drinks, then walked to another bar/club with her lesbian hairstylist and drank more! pet met so many interesting people...most of the bisexual she realizes...even her hairstylist...Master, pet declined a few women and had a one woman in particular very angry (she was drunk) that pet was not there to "play". pet was there because her stylist came into town from Colorado early so she could hang out with her friends...pet just so happens to be one of them. Master, pet realized too that her stylist actually wants to be with her sexually. pet's stylist was also drunk and mouth screwing a bisexual guy named John. pet was most surprised to see her doing this because she has never seen her with anyone other than women. pet almost choked on her drink.
pet realized after dancing a few songs with John and Lora that she had to leave because John was starting to get angry with pet...Lora was angry with pet...because pet wasn't "playing" with them. pet left for home then.
pet had so much on her mind...was "playing" with these people something she really wanted to do? Can people really just randomly have sex with each other without feeling something for the other person other than just sexual desire? pet isn't sure that the casual sex thing is for her. The individuals that were out last night were a great time indeed, but because pet danced with them they had a sense of entitlement...they were entitled to "play" with pet just because we danced a few songs together. Rubbing butts and gyrating hips does not mean pet wants to sleep with you.
pet didn't have to buy a single drink for herself, they were paid for by another guy that was hanging out with us. pet thinks his name was Vincent...or Vinnie...can't remember...but he was buying her drink after drink...she thinks that some of the people she was hanging out with were taking X because two had put these pill-like things in their mouths and let them dissolve on their tongues. pet kept asking them what it was they were taking...it's the health care provider in me to ask...because if they passed out and had to go to the ER pet would need to tell the hospital what they had so they don't kill them with other drugs... alright...that's a little dramatic but you understand what pet is writing right Master? No one would tell pet what it was...they would hold the pill out on their tongue and tell pet to "come find out". pet declined. Several times in fact.
Master, why do some men think that if they buy you a drink they deserve more than just a "thank you"? Master knows pet can buy her own drinks...can buy them drinks...but pet doesn't expect them to go home with her.
Years ago, when pet was in the dating scene...she would always feel like she owed someone something if they bought dinner or a drink...took her a very long time to believe she didn't owe anyone anything and if that sex was the price of a drink, they can keep their effing drink. pet isn't easy like that. More than just dinner and drink... (haha)
Anyway, pet wondered if Master would ever go to a place like that with pet and dance with her? pet would have a difficult time not getting turned on by rubbing on you. :)
pet is attending a munch tonight...it is close by and seems like it will be fun. There was another event that pet RSVP'd for earlier but could not attend...as she was at work.
Sorry for the drunk texts...pet misses you terribly. pet cannot explain how she is feeling about your absence from her. pet cannot even explain how or why exactly she even feels this way about you. pet feels a little lost. Keeping busy is helping.
pet is doing research about sub-drop, sub-space, and aftercare. There seems to be a little conflict with what some say about the three. Some believe that it is Master's responsibility as my dom to provide adequate aftercare to avoid sub-drop. Others believe it is pets responsibility to care for herself and provide herself adequate care after a scene/session. pet believes that Master will know what is best for pet...as he already does now.
pet still isn't sure how exactly Master is doing this FOR ME.
A sub is supposed to be ALL ABOUT YOU(Master/Dom). Not about the sub.
So to me, that means this shouldn't be about me...but about you.
Perhaps pet just needs to stop reading so much...over analyzing is going to be the end of me.
Master can explain what he expects of pet so she can meet Master's expectations. pet realizes it is still early on in this D/s relationship.
xoxoxox
pet
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