No-Strings
pet took a break today from her studies. That would be the endless studying of being a submissive. One thing that is hard for me to grasp of late, is submission. Total submission. Submission to my Master...to his needs. Perhaps t isn't the submission itself, but rather the trust pet must be mindful of. Trust that in all things, once she fully submits, her desires will be addressed.
So often, all my life really, it has been give, do, give, do, give do, for others. In those relationships, it always ended poorly. The doing and the giving was never reciprocated or appreciated. It was an expectation of me. I had never given a thought to my own needs, or never looked for reciprocation, but in my last marriage, pet decided she had enough. Master, you know the details of all that. Upon reflection of previous boyfriends, it was more of the same. Some abused me...some didn't, some just liked having me on hold while they sought out other playmates. In all that, I had always longed to find someone who would feel the desire to have a reciprocal give and take relationship. Not one where I was the only one giving and he/she the only one taking. pet has always been exceptionally generous, to a fault. pet was always taught by her preacher father, to give without expectation of anything in return.
pet's current problem stems from deciding after ex-DH(dick head and not dear husband in this case), I would no longer give that way any more. No, pet wasn't setting out to give and expect something, but just not give it all to someone anymore so freely. Yet, as a submissive, pet is finding this is the way things are. As a submissive, my wants and desires would be second to a Dom. Or so I thought. Yes, as your submissive, pet is to seek to please her Master. Master has never asked of anything unreasonable...Master has never asked of anything that was not first and foremost good for pet. pet has been taking care of herself as she never had before. pet is seeing that she is beautiful and has a lot to offer the world around her. pet sees she is highly intelligent and educated, however the one thing that still clothes lines her as she moves toward a complete and fulfilling D/s relationship with you is fully submitting...and trusting you with not just my psyche, but my heart too.
With said insecurities, fundamental needs/or desires have come to the forefront of my mind. It's the need for reassurance that really seems to be taxing and often time a clear point of contention between us. pet wishes not to disappoint her Master. pet does see how often her insecurities clearly impact her communication with you and pet will make comments that were better left kept to herself.
pet has a deeply sincere appreciation for Master making time for her. Master is so profoundly busy during this season, yet he makes time to text, call, or on a divine occasion actually beckon for her presence. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day or days in the week. Master is spread incredibly thin, and that alone makes pet feel repentant for her inability to control her emotions sometimes. Our interactions as D/s truly must be positive and fun...some also to be erotic and sensual...basically they must be pleasurable. pet doesn't always make this easy for Master...for this she is truly sorry. This lack of "more time in the day" isn't necessarily an indicator of anything "wrong" with the situation. It simply is how things are. Just the nature of the beast so to speak.
Master, your energy feeds a part of me that hungers for positive energy and love. While Master doesn't verbally say such things, pet FEELS them. pet feels as though he does love, cherish, and adore her for the woman she is and the woman she is evolving into. Master may very well feel these things and not say them, but pet believing in them is enough for now. My existence and my evolution is because of you Master. Master saved pets life from a most certain death. While pet has never been a quitter...she was so close to the edge it scared her. Master took pet under his wing and just because she exists, takes his direction, and continues to evolve...he loves her. pet is quickly returning to her pre-marriage self....becoming even better than she once was...pet surely feels stronger than ever. Clear headed, off pain meds completely...this alone has impacted me greatly. pet is truly beginning to believe she is the beautiful creature you see. This beauty when pet feels it, emanates from her core especially of recent. Buying clothes that fit, taking the time to do my makeup, smelling nice, hair just the way it ends up being....really liking what I see in the mirror...realizing that if Master could see me at that moment, he would most approve. It is a very pleasurable feeling. Master always has encouraging words and never forgets to tell pet when she looks good. Thank you. Master's words are so very meaningful...they speak to my heart and spirit.
Past life experience has taught pet that these compliments had always come with strings. But with Master, there are none.
So often, all my life really, it has been give, do, give, do, give do, for others. In those relationships, it always ended poorly. The doing and the giving was never reciprocated or appreciated. It was an expectation of me. I had never given a thought to my own needs, or never looked for reciprocation, but in my last marriage, pet decided she had enough. Master, you know the details of all that. Upon reflection of previous boyfriends, it was more of the same. Some abused me...some didn't, some just liked having me on hold while they sought out other playmates. In all that, I had always longed to find someone who would feel the desire to have a reciprocal give and take relationship. Not one where I was the only one giving and he/she the only one taking. pet has always been exceptionally generous, to a fault. pet was always taught by her preacher father, to give without expectation of anything in return.
pet's current problem stems from deciding after ex-DH(dick head and not dear husband in this case), I would no longer give that way any more. No, pet wasn't setting out to give and expect something, but just not give it all to someone anymore so freely. Yet, as a submissive, pet is finding this is the way things are. As a submissive, my wants and desires would be second to a Dom. Or so I thought. Yes, as your submissive, pet is to seek to please her Master. Master has never asked of anything unreasonable...Master has never asked of anything that was not first and foremost good for pet. pet has been taking care of herself as she never had before. pet is seeing that she is beautiful and has a lot to offer the world around her. pet sees she is highly intelligent and educated, however the one thing that still clothes lines her as she moves toward a complete and fulfilling D/s relationship with you is fully submitting...and trusting you with not just my psyche, but my heart too.
With said insecurities, fundamental needs/or desires have come to the forefront of my mind. It's the need for reassurance that really seems to be taxing and often time a clear point of contention between us. pet wishes not to disappoint her Master. pet does see how often her insecurities clearly impact her communication with you and pet will make comments that were better left kept to herself.
pet has a deeply sincere appreciation for Master making time for her. Master is so profoundly busy during this season, yet he makes time to text, call, or on a divine occasion actually beckon for her presence. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day or days in the week. Master is spread incredibly thin, and that alone makes pet feel repentant for her inability to control her emotions sometimes. Our interactions as D/s truly must be positive and fun...some also to be erotic and sensual...basically they must be pleasurable. pet doesn't always make this easy for Master...for this she is truly sorry. This lack of "more time in the day" isn't necessarily an indicator of anything "wrong" with the situation. It simply is how things are. Just the nature of the beast so to speak.
Master, your energy feeds a part of me that hungers for positive energy and love. While Master doesn't verbally say such things, pet FEELS them. pet feels as though he does love, cherish, and adore her for the woman she is and the woman she is evolving into. Master may very well feel these things and not say them, but pet believing in them is enough for now. My existence and my evolution is because of you Master. Master saved pets life from a most certain death. While pet has never been a quitter...she was so close to the edge it scared her. Master took pet under his wing and just because she exists, takes his direction, and continues to evolve...he loves her. pet is quickly returning to her pre-marriage self....becoming even better than she once was...pet surely feels stronger than ever. Clear headed, off pain meds completely...this alone has impacted me greatly. pet is truly beginning to believe she is the beautiful creature you see. This beauty when pet feels it, emanates from her core especially of recent. Buying clothes that fit, taking the time to do my makeup, smelling nice, hair just the way it ends up being....really liking what I see in the mirror...realizing that if Master could see me at that moment, he would most approve. It is a very pleasurable feeling. Master always has encouraging words and never forgets to tell pet when she looks good. Thank you. Master's words are so very meaningful...they speak to my heart and spirit.
Past life experience has taught pet that these compliments had always come with strings. But with Master, there are none.
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